It’s done. I can’t believe I just did it. I cut off my
own cable TV today. The decision did not come lightly as I’ve spent the better
part of December 2015 and the start of January 2016 thinking about it. I’ve
lived in some not so great places and in some not so great conditions but
somehow, I don’t remember ever not having some kind of TV program, running in
the background of whatever situation I was in. And after spending the last 3
years very much in solitude, I’ve found that the TV is constantly occupying my
space, even when I’m doing something else, in another room. If that isn’t a
sign of pure, unadulterated addiction, then I need to reread the definition of
addiction.
I remember, now more than ever, all those hours spent
reading books on all kinds of subjects. Women’s Romance Novels started the
cycle when I was a young awkward, confused, angry teenager. Then I found
pleasure of Science Fiction such as multi-dimensions worlds, time travel and
other undiscovered possibilities. Once I fell in Fantasy fables and tales, I
was awakened to ever flexible boundaries of creativity with words. I finally
saw the connection between idea, development and actual creation.
I lost all those feelings through Life’s roller-coaster
ride of poor choices, compromises and disappointments. I’ve come close, several
times, to letting the desperation engulf me to total darkness. Those had to be
the darkest of times for me. Yet, here I am, wanting to return the enjoyment of
escape while finding balance in the reality of that surrounds me.
By losing the chain that cable TV has become in my
life, I want to find the space to fill with more of what is around me
personally and globally, without it being scheduled around a pre-scheduled
timeline on a TV Guide screen. As almost every minute of TV seems to scream at
me, all that I seek is available across the Internet. And I’m going to find out
for myself if this true.
As I write this, the TV is running on its last hours
of paid subscription and I’m feeling about as nervous as each time I attempt to
quit smoking. Sure hope I’m more successful at quitting cable TV.
#cuttingoutcableTV ,#returntoreading, #simplfy, #returntosilence
©DominiqueClark2016
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