Constant Reboot

       That’s how Life can feel for some of us. We describe our daily routine as a struggle, a battle, or some other term encompassing the random, yet consistent chaos that is your life. And the more your determination is communicated as anger, resentment, pain and such, the more the opposing forces will build against you to stop your constant attempt for change. Once you accept the theory of action, reaction and opposing balance, you will be able to find balance in the chaos that you don’t control.

       That about sums up what I have gotten out of my endless months of blog silence. The valleys have been very deep indeed and the ascensions that followed were just as breathtaking and arduous, and here I am…hitting the Reboot button on life, again. And during this mild hilltop moment, I’ve found myself writing, a lot. The love and interest in certain pastimes has returned over the last 24 months, in increments, including baking and the need to make some sweaters. All these things were lost to me during times of depressive valleys.

       I hope to make the most of this year’s opportunities, whether I create them or receive them for like-minded people. I have come to the conclusion that the struggle is more of a bumpy journey if you learn to understand and work through, around or with your situation to correct it to fit your current needs and wants. I’ve come to understand that Contentment is far easier to achieve than defined Happiness. You cannot expect respect for yourself if you don’t respect yourself.

       So I go into 2016 on another Reboot. With some unresolved situations that need to be finalized and some new ideas and hopes that may need to be realized. But the ultimate conclusion is: that I’m able to do any of what I do on a daily basis is awesome, to say the least. And I’m trying to make the most of this life as the highs and lows allow. And I’m going to use those same highs and lows to my advantage on this Reboot. 3, 2, 1…Click.

#depression, #socialanxiety, #therapy, #mentalwellness, #letstalkCanada

©DominiqueClark2016

Cut Off The Cable Today...(WTF!?!?!)

It’s done. I can’t believe I just did it. I cut off my own cable TV today. The decision did not come lightly as I’ve spent the better part of December 2015 and the start of January 2016 thinking about it. I’ve lived in some not so great places and in some not so great conditions but somehow, I don’t remember ever not having some kind of TV program, running in the background of whatever situation I was in. And after spending the last 3 years very much in solitude, I’ve found that the TV is constantly occupying my space, even when I’m doing something else, in another room. If that isn’t a sign of pure, unadulterated addiction, then I need to reread the definition of addiction.

I remember, now more than ever, all those hours spent reading books on all kinds of subjects. Women’s Romance Novels started the cycle when I was a young awkward, confused, angry teenager. Then I found pleasure of Science Fiction such as multi-dimensions worlds, time travel and other undiscovered possibilities. Once I fell in Fantasy fables and tales, I was awakened to ever flexible boundaries of creativity with words. I finally saw the connection between idea, development and actual creation.

I lost all those feelings through Life’s roller-coaster ride of poor choices, compromises and disappointments. I’ve come close, several times, to letting the desperation engulf me to total darkness. Those had to be the darkest of times for me. Yet, here I am, wanting to return the enjoyment of escape while finding balance in the reality of that surrounds me.

By losing the chain that cable TV has become in my life, I want to find the space to fill with more of what is around me personally and globally, without it being scheduled around a pre-scheduled timeline on a TV Guide screen. As almost every minute of TV seems to scream at me, all that I seek is available across the Internet. And I’m going to find out for myself if this true.

As I write this, the TV is running on its last hours of paid subscription and I’m feeling about as nervous as each time I attempt to quit smoking. Sure hope I’m more successful at quitting cable TV.

#cuttingoutcableTV ,#returntoreading, #simplfy, #returntosilence

©DominiqueClark2016

Ohhhhhhhhhh!!!!! Vidal.....(It's that good.)

I never thought i would leave my faithful haircare line but who of us can see into the future. I won't make this more difficult for the wounded parties so I won't mention my former mangle-candy for my hair. I really thought I would have to do the eternal back-and-forth for life to keep the bounce and shine going.

Did I mention my poodle-frizz? (without trying, it really looks like this.)

So then, I catch an ad announcing the new Vidal Sassoon Pro Series. Do I dare spend my peanuts on a product I may use only twice if not satisfied? (There's a drawer filled with those products).

Well, I did and I LOVE IT !!!!!!!!!!!

I brought home the V.S. Pro Series Volume shampoo and  conditioner.

 And it never saw the drawer. Of course, I ran out of conditioner before the shampoo so I brought home the V.S. Pro Series Moisture conditioner.

And the love is just growing stronger. I have not had to use any other products after my shampoo and conditioning. I do not tell a lie!

It used to be shampoo, condition, leave-in condition, blow-dry, straightener spray, straightener.
Now I shampoo, condition, blow-dry and straighten.  (See how much shorter that is.)

Ladies, just one try and you will fall in love, too.